A Ball of Emotions!

I have been a ball of emotions lately. Whether its been sad or happy or crying or whatever! I just seem to be like a yo-yo going up and down! I've been sad because Hubbie has been working so very much. Its very hard to not have him coming home at his normal time. I can't remember the last time all four of us sat down to eat a meal. Maybe it was Sunday after church....but even that feels like forever ago. I called my Bible Study Fellowship leader on Monday and told her that I would be missing my discussion group that night, because Hubbie was going to be pulling another late night. I started crying when I told her our wonderful news. I am so thrilled to tell ANYONE we are expecting, but, for some reason, when I mentioned a few things that have been on Hubbie's and my mind, concerning the baby, I got a lump in my throat and had a difficult time speaking. This baby is such a blessing. We continue to smile when we think about our family growing and are (AGAIN) thrilled, but the idea of this child potentially becoming our last....well.....its sad and heartbreaking and just not a thought that I like to think about. I don't know if our family will ever be finished and maybe some women never get rid of that nagging feeling, but I just know that I am 26- almost 27 yrs old- and that is so young to have my baby days ending.

Thankfully I have been feeling fine tummy wise. If I eat a normal size meal, I'll feel yucky. I try to eat more small meals, but I tend to eat 3 meals and no snacks. I have not been deathly sick once, so I am very thankful for that. I can't imagine being really sick and Hubbie working as much as he has this month. Most of all, I'm just tired. Ready for nap time when it finally gets here and SO ready for bed time! Its about all I can do is make it from nap to bed time, get the house semi-straigthened, dishes finished and then I collapse on the couch and wait for Hubs.

So, I am ready for Spring and sunny weather so the boys can go outside and play. I am ready for Hubbie's work schedule to be not quite so hectic and for him to be home more. I am ready to stop feeling so darn tired and lazy!