Slowly....But Surely....

We leave tomorrow SUPER, DUPER early to make the drive to the cruise ship. Its about a 7 hr drive and I hate riding/driving especially for that long. Hoping that it'll go by fast!

Haven't packed yet.... we'll do that tonight once we drop the boys off with Nana and Pops. We've been slowly collecting things, making notes, buying odds and ends and just throwing them in the direction of the suitcase. Tonight will be crunch time and I know we can get it done a lot faster without boys and both of us!

Still having anxious moments/thoughts. Didn't sleep very well last night...thinking of everything that needs to be done and just the trip in general. I have always prided myself in saying that I do tell the WHOLE TRUTH on this blog... I write when I have awesome days and when I'm just in a bad mood. I very rarely decide to not blog about something going on. I guess people are getting the impression that we are ungrateful for this trip or maybe have gotten the impression that we don't realize WHO this trip came from. Ummm? I think that is so untrue. We've given God the glory from the SECOND those 3 radio men walked into our house. We told them the story instantly and have repeatedly given God the glory for making this happen. I DO NOT believe this is a once in a lifetime trip, BUT I do believe that it is something that we would have had to go into debt to do right now, which wasn't an option. We NEVER thought about not taking this trip- even when I was having my sobbing moments- with leaving the boys. I KNOW this is something for my husband and I and I am looking forward to having time away without kids. I really don't know why people are assuming SO MUCH. If you're close friends and family, you know the ups and downs for this emotional trip for me..... I do not enjoy spending every waking moment with my kids. I have always said I enjoy a night away or being able to run an errand or two without kiddos, but these kids are my life and my dream and my job. I take it seriously and I love them to pieces and know this is my life right now and want to do the best job- just like every mother, I'm sure. So, not to get into a rant, but PLEASE...just pray for peace, safety and for God to use this trip as a way to rekindle our relationship/romance and for us to be restored in HIM for the rest of this eventful year!

I've said this SEVERAL times, but I do believe God is using this to help me keep perspective on whose kids these REALLY are, give up control (or the illusion of control) and to strengthen our marriage.

So, next time you "see" me, I'll be- hopefully- a darkened version, but not BURNT- from the hot Bahama sun and have tons of pics, stories and wonderful blessings from the Lord!

Have a great week everyone!