Yesterday morning we loaded up the car very early and headed to the big hospital in town. It was something that I had wanted to kinda forget about...nothing bad was going to happen, but I did feel like if I went, it just made the whole process more real.
Peanut is going to have surgery. He is going to be put to sleep for about a hr. A surgeon will do a very simple and quick operation on him. And then, Lord willing, everything will be A-OK. It makes me sick to even think about his little body being put to sleep...motionless....
We met the surgeon and the physician assistant. They were both very kind. The P.A. happened to be one of Hubbie's co-workers mothers. The lead physician's wife is one of my mother's clients. Its amazing how intertwined we are to this practice of surgeons- the only pediatric surgeons in the area. I feel very VERY sure that God is walking us through this whole process.
I have decided that I will not blog about my baby's surgery. Again, it is nothing drastic or life shattering, but it IS something that must be done. Please don't think I'm being mean or uppity but I just don't think this needs to be aired out for the world to see.... its something that years from now, he may have not wanted me to blog about....so I thought about it for a long time and decided that only close friends and family would find out.
In the pit of my stomach, its something that I just KNEW we would have to do eventually and I'm angry that we have to. But I can't go back......so we are gonna quietly take my precious middle boy to the hospital in about a month to have this procedure done.
It will take about a month for him to be fully recovered. That is another part that scares me. My baby in, not necessarily pain, but discomfort. I just pray that he doesn't remember all this and I am trying to think that God allowed us to notice the issue before he got too much older.
Lord willing, after this, we can put this behind us and we will be good to go! There is a reason this happened There is a reason this is happening now- while we are desperately trying to knock out this last debt. This is definitely not a good time for us to be paying for surgeries or any extras! But, again, it must be done, so we will do it!
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6 thoughtful comments:
I'll definitely be praying for him and for you! My oldest had to have surgery under general anesthesia when he was about 15 months. (It was his circumcision...something that we had wanted to have done at birth, but couldn't because of an abnormality.) I was really nervous about him being put under too, but he did wonderfully and recovered much quicker than we were told he might. I think that children handle these things better than we do. I know that I would have complained a lot more than he did if I was the one that had the surgery!!
Sending up prayers for you and him and your whole family! Luke almost had to go under anesthesia at 3 months, but then we found a doctor to do the procedure differently. I know it is hard to think about your little one being in surgery, but God's hands will be holding him the entire time!
I will be thinking of you and praying for you and the little one.
Rascal had to have surgery and be put to sleep at 4 months for tubes and then again at around 15 months for another set of tubes. The hardest part for me was seeing him leave my side and then when he came back out of the surgery and woke up he was disoriented.. which made me sad too.
Don't have any advice to offer as I've never been through anything like that, but just know we are praying!
I think you're right in not sharing exactly what is going on. This is one of those instances where you have to protect his privacy and think about how he would react in the future to knowing you blogged about it. Praying for the sweet little man (and his Momma)!
So sorry you are dealing with this. I will pray for him and all of you!
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