Brain Clutter

Have you ever had a cluttered brain?  One that is so cluttered and has a million, zillion things in it.  Last week I walked around thinking that we were forgetting to be somewhere or do something.  I never remembered what it was.  Maybe I didn't forget.  It sure felt like it though.

Thankfully the closing process is still going smoothly.  I can only give the Lord credit for that.  He has continued to answer prayers and make it so that we can truly see His hands in this process.  We fought the idea of buying a house, kicking and screaming, but when God works it out in so many areas and down to such details that we couldn't have possibly orchestrated, we gotta step back and watch Him work.  As long as we continue to have smooth sailing, we will close next Friday and I cannot WAIT to get this part of our lives behind us and life back to "normal".

I was reminded the other day, in a totally unrelated way, to stop and enjoy this process.  I think my worries, frustrations, anxiousness and fatigue are starting to take over.... what I really need to be doing is continuing to praise Him and trust Him.  Like I said above, this is a totally God thing.  Only He could have arranged everything to happen the way it did.  It truly is a miracle of events.  Hubbie and I are still dumbfounded by the way God worked out such details.  All we can do is chuckle.  I know this has got to be satan's doing, the stress and worry, so I need to keep focused on this moving and home buying being a blessing from God and not a curse.  I was thinking (more like fussing under my breath) that I would never buy a house in June, 31 weeks pregnant, but God knew we'd go through this, during this time in our family, so He has a plan.  I must trust that He will continue to provide and give us the ability and help that we need.

Our home is currently in the state of no return.  Boxes are everywhere.  Clutter.  Junk.  I'm going crazy with chaos!  I had Hubbie tear down the boy's beds (since its so time consuming and in an effort to save time next week) so their mattresses are on the floor. Since we tore down the crib, I set up the pack-n-play in the big boy's room for Buggy and now we all have 3 in there.  Buggy's room has turned into the storage room.  Boxes and boxes and boxes EVERYWHERE!  Sadly, we've packed his room and must start stacking boxes somewhere else.

On Sunday I plan to cook up several meals for the week and pack our kitchen.  It'll be so nice to have the kitchen cabinets cleaned and everything packed away.  The kitchen is always the last thing for us to pack, on moving day, I'm always finishing that last annoying job.  Thanks to a friend's suggestion, I am going to pack away almost everything (dish and cooking wise) and use paper plates, cups and disposable utensils.  Hopefully this will make our week a little smoother and make that final day in the house much less chaotic.  Did I mention that this is our 6th move in almost 9 years of marriage.  9 years ago in the middle of June, 2 days before we got married, Hubbie and I moved all our stuff in our first apartment.  From then on, we moved to various places, locally, and now, finally, we are moving somewhere that is ours and Lord willing, a blessing to our family!

Speaking of normal, I am 31.5 weeks pregnant now and am remembering all the aches and pains and tiredness that I had at this stage with Buggy.  I guess we were chugging through the end of the 2nd trimester so fast with house hunting and all that stress, I didn't even think about my body and now its giving me big warning signs to slow down!  I pack a box or two and my back is ACHING!  I am trying to be productive in the morning and evenings and lay down at nap time.  It doesn't always work, but that is my goal.  Some days it doesn't work out and some days even resting for a hour or two doesn't help at all.  I am so thankful for my husband.  He is my biggest help and will pick up my slack on bad days.

One of my many brain clutters is schooling.  Area schools are finishing up in the next few days and this was around the time that I wanted to start back.  We haven't touched any schooling in about 3 weeks and I gotta admit, its nice to not have that to think about or stress about next year. I haven't asked anyone to do anything even REMOTELY school related.  We've watched entirely too much T.V., played outside and enjoyed our laid back mornings of playing.  I had on the calendar to start school around Memorial Day and since we'll still be in moving, heck, I know it'll be the LAST thing on my mind!  So, my question is, when do we start?  We have VBS one week in June.  Another week I am thinking about sending Bubbie to a space type camp in town.  Then you add in the week of trying to get organized and cozy in our new place.... its almost July by that point, so who knows.  Part of me says, if I can't even get started before July, why try, knowing the baby will be scheduled to come sometime mid July.  But then I think about not starting until September and gosh! that puts us getting out so late!  And I enjoy having flexibility of taking a day off if its nice outside, etc.  So, who knows.....  I need to get a start date so that I can turn the form into the state.  I guess we'll cross that bridge next week after the move. And speaking of crossing that bridge, I guess I had better finish ordering Bubbie's math materials.  Eeek!  Completely forgot!!!

Another brain clutter, back to the move, is that every stinkin' place requires a transfer fee for utilities... even if you're already a customer AND the utilities are already on at the new place.  So frustrating!  I mean, these fees aren't cheap either.  Its not $20 or $30 bucks!  One was over $60!  Craziness!  And then on top of it we'll have random half bills from this place and the new place and for me, an anal money person, I'm trying to keep it all straight!  I actually have a "money" book that if I lose this in the next week or two, during the move, I may die!  It has everything that we're required to pay, dates and appointments for people to come do stuff for us, closing notes, etc.  If I lose this, it'll be bad news!  :o)

The plan this weekend is to tackle our bedroom and laundry room. Its been on the "to-do" list for about a week or two and it MUST get done!  I just pray that we can get though what needs to be done, because right now, I'm feeling overwhelmed and just want to sit down and cry!