Random Mom

• Bubbie is counting down til Baby Day!  He tells me every day how many more days until baby and that he's so glad its July!  Such a sweet big brother!!!
•  Picked up milk yesterday from the co-op..... 7 gallons (5 white, 2 chocolate)  Hopefully this will last us for 2 weeks!  
• Hubbie hung the curtains, the fan and the tissue paper pom pom's for the baby's room.  Its really starting to come together.  I need to find a rug, spray paint a mirror, hang the mirror and I think we'll be done!  I went over my mom's house yesterday morning and she has been working on the dust ruffle, quilt and now bumper pads for the crib!  It looks great!  I can't wait to get it in the room and see it all finally put together!  What a stressful, but fun process creating the room has been!  I couldn't have done it without my Mama!  
• Cooking and prepping for the baby has yet to happen.  I am tempted to head to the store and load up on frozen foods!  Not the healthiest or cheapest way, but I'm thinking for the next few months, frozen would be better than eating out....right?  We'll see what kind of energy I find tomorrow!  
• Right before my c-sections I always have a sudden "panic"....like crap! I gotta have ANOTHER c-section!  I don't want to do it!  I was surprised that over the weekend, I still hadn't had that rush of "panic" come over me yet.  Well, guess what?  Its here!  It struck yesterday.  I wish I could wiggle my nose and just be done with the whole surgery and recovery.  Not a long period, but just long enough to get me feeling like a human again!  I've done this 3 other times.  I know the routine.  I know what phases I will go through.  I KNOW.  Yes, in a way, it makes it easier to prepare for.  Last time, Hubbie and I were able to really communicate with each other much better than the other 2 times because I knew what my cycle my body and emotions would take us through, so I was able to say "Look, I know this sounds unreasonable and its crazy, but if this isn't like this, then I'll probably get upset.... not because I'm upset at anyone, but because of my emotions"  or whatever... but it just made it a lot easier.  He knew me and I knew me and my swings.  Also, breast feeding.  GEEZ!  The beginning, no matter what, has always been....not challenging..... just LONG..... once we got it down with Peanut and Bugs, it was great.... but just getting past the milk coming in and learning each other..... its a long process filled with many emotions, aches and discomfort.  I am just looking forward to being a few weeks out from now and being able to say "Whew! Got through that part!"  
• I set up the last season of GLEE to come to our home, through Netflix, for entertainment at the hospital.  Day time T.V. is SO boring and with the last baby, we could only find reruns of Law and Order on TNT.  We enjoy Law and Order, but you can only watch SO many episodes in the afternoons, SO many days in a row!  Eventually, its time for something else!  I decided to try out GLEE a few months- just to see what all the hype was about.  I'm not a huge musical gal.  I enjoy some.  I love Grease and Hairspray (new and old), but really did NOT like Mamma Mia! Maybe its the songs?  So I didn't think I'd like Glee, but its pretty entertaining and I love the music!  There have been a few episodes that I've been less than thrilled with, but so far, pretty decent writers.
• I have really NOT paid attention to the outside of our home.  When we purchased the house, we knew a lot of work, money and time would be focused on the exterior of the home.  When the former owners had the roof replaced, they never finished some of the finishing items and therefore, we got a steal-of-a-deal because we didn't ask them to finish it for us.  My dad and Hubbie spent 4 of 5 days/evenings on the project and all the replacing of wood and putting up the finishing pieces are finished.  Now we need to finish the caulking and paint the exterior of the home (thankfully its a brick home, so just the wood around windows/doors/roof and carport needs painting)  But anyway, the goal was to finish before baby, but that just isn't going to happen.  We'll have to set aside another Saturday for working, in a month or two, when things settle down a bit.  Anyway, while walking into the house today, I noticed our light fixture by the front door.  Its disgusting!  Oh my gosh!  Its old and worn and..... UGLY!  Then, I started looking closer at our door.  UCK!  They never painted or stained it, so its just raw splintery wood AND it looks like when they replaced the front door, instead of scraping and adding new "whatever" they just painted over the old, crappy parts (I know, SO descriptive) and its all cracked and they only painted one coat, so it just looks TERRIBLE!  Oh my!  I don't plan on fixing the front door before the baby comes, but I'm definitely gonna be marching my butt into Lowes and seeing if we can get some black exterior paint for the door and getting a much needed outdoor light fixture.  Oh my gosh!  I decided not to touch the lawn for the time being.  Hubbie mows, but as far as getting rid of monkey grass or pruning or weeding....its just gonna have to wait.  The inside has been much more important to me, but once the weather gets a little nicer, we definitely have our weekends booked for yard work.  I think we figured out that the former owners were quite busy and if they started a job, it never got finished.  We have half way jobs all over the house.  In one way, its a huge blessing that they replaced a ton of stuff, because on our budget, a lot of stuff wouldn't be done.....for a few years!  In another way, its frustrating, because we're fixing "their mess"......  so anyway......  
• Hubbie has been working CRAZY this week.  So exhausting!  The sad part is that this will probably continue for the rest of the year!  Lucky me, huh?!  In one way, I'm trying really hard to be optimistic..... and thank God for a job, 4 children, the ability that I can stay home, etc.  BUT its so frustrating and annoying that this HAS to happen for 3 out of our 4 children.  When Peanut came home, I don't even think we saw Hubbie, unless he was sleeping.  And Peanut had colic.  It was a FUN few months!  ;o)  Buggy was the same way.  I wanted Hubbie to take 2 weeks off so that he could help me with my recovery and he got a week....maybe.....  UGH!  I hate this!  I better stop now before I say too much, but its just incredibly annoying and difficult!  ;o)  
• We're down to being able to count down to baby on one hand!  That happened REALLY fast!  I'm SO ready to not be pregnant!  To be able to move freely!  Lift things!  Not have to wait for someone else to do something for me!  Geez!  Independence will be GREAT!  :o)  Never having the miracle of life growing inside of me, ever again, will be sad.  Its been a great pregnancy that I am very thankful for.  Probably the best one since Bubbie's, which was also good and complication free (until the end).  
• Gotta go to Target AGAIN for some things we need before baby.  Geez!  I want to get all these errands done so that I can hibernate and not go anywhere!  Hasn't happened yet!