Living With?

We now 12 days under our belts eating under the Low Gi Diet.  To say that I have been a bit depressed/ frustrated is an understatement.  This has been a very emotional process.  I love to bake and I can't really bake.  I love french fries and Coke!  Can't have either!  Ever!  Try depriving yourself of an item and KNOWING that if you eat it, its worse for your body and could send your body into another giant body full of cysts?  Have I come to terms with not having some items in our house?  Yes, its much easier when everything in your house is OK....but its definitely hard when seeing yummy recipes, commercials for restaurants that you love, etc.  I think if I were seeing improvement already, I think I would be a bit more positive about it.... but I haven't.  Some of the cysts that I had under the skin have developed into a much larger one causing intense pain when I move.  The stye on my eye, I thought, went away, but I'm thinking its coming back again.  Its all very discouraging!  Handling the kiddos, cooking everything from scratch 3 x a day, quadrupling the dishes and doing schooling has proven very challenging!  On top of all this, Peanut brought home a cold and shared it with the entire family this week!  The second one I've gotten in a month!  I'm dragging!  So very thankful that only one of our schooling activities have started back and hopefully, by the time the others start back, I will be doing better.

Because of a few "health issues" popping up, I have made an appointment for another doctor next week and need to schedule another one.  I am praying that all three (these two and then the one that diagnosed me) will all agree, be encouraging and helpful to maybe not "cure me" but to at least set me on the road to recovery!

I have done a lot of research about my health condition and its still confusing and frustrating!  Different sites say different things!  I had thought about trying to find a nutritionist but a lot times they suggest low-fat, calorie counting and substitution eating.  Thats not really what I want.  I want to be able to eat healthy, fruits and veggies and whole foods.  I don't want a low fat cheese or fat free xyz.  There are proven studies that say that fat is not the problem with obesity in America.  Fat is good for you.  Good fats.  Take nuts for instance.  Of course, you can't eat TONS of them, but fat isn't the killer.  The things that God created for us to eat are the best... .and thats what I'm trying to live by.  Its difficult.  I know that if the doc hadn't suggested this, I probably wouldn't be eating this way....even though, we knew we needed to get back to eating better.  We have been in a downhill spiral since last March, when we started to look for a house.  Its been a long, stressful year.... speaking of stress, my skin condition is aggravated by stress!  How in the heck do I lower our stress level?!  If anything, its been raised!  I am uptight anyway and then with the Holidays, birthdays, life, family stresses, schooling, my body falling apart, the house, etc.  I'm surprised my whole body isn't one big cyst!  Definitely need to simplify.   Cut out the stresses {except the kiddos  LOL}

Exercising is a big key that I haven't been able to figure out.  How in the world will I fit it in consistently?  Every time I plan to wake up and go to the gym, Millie wakes up early or stays up late so that I don't get the sleep I need.  Sleep is also a big key.  December, I didn't get a lot of sleep and I was stressed MAJORLY so I need to really do a lot of both... on a consistent basis....but how?!  :o)  I'll eventually figure it all out!  I'm motivated because I'm in so much pain!

Today I am praising God for the good things, abundant provisions, our health, supportive family and friends and so so much more!